Hey, :)

So, I guess my new routine is writing a blog every month because I can't seem to write them any more sooner than that for some reason. I really like to write because I feel like I can express myself more when I write down my feelings.

So, tonight and last night Justin has been working with his guitar teacher recording a song for him and his band. They're doing a remake of the song from Nickleback, I dont know the title, but it's kind of a funny song. They're doing it for Nuskin so the words are even more funny than the original words. Justin has loved helping him with this and its great that he's getting the experience. It just really sucks for me because he is gone past midnight, last night and he will be tonight. Lol, I know it's kind of dumb that I'm being lonely, but it does make me realize how much I care about Justin.

So, anyways, everything has been going well over here. A lot has happened. First, we sold our yellow car. Now we only have our white honda. Justin is going to buy a bike to ride to school as he is going to have an on campus job in their recording studio, hopefully. I am sure that he will, he really does not realize how smart he is. Second, I applied for a job at PetsMart, for the dog training position. I have not heard back from them so who knows if it will work out, but I am keeping my fingers crossed. Third, we bought a 6 ft. Ohana bag/ Lovesac. It is so awesome! It sits right in the middle of our front room and pretty much there is no more room in the front room anymore lol, but we love it. Jasper is not so sure about it, we think he thinks it's going to eat him, but he will get used to it we hope. Fourth, Justin is almost done with this semester, he is doing very well this semester and learning very fast. Fifth, my job at Worldwide Book Drive is really taking off, we are now fulfilling about 200 books a day, shipping them out to people all over the world. I should be getting a raise sometime but who knows when.

Wow, that was a lot of information about our lives and how we're doin. One of the things going on with me right now is I am really learning not to worry about what others think at all. More importantly, I mean, I am not taking anything so directly personal, as a negative thing. Those who know me very well know that I just really get down on myself even if I say one thing and it is not even interpreted the wrong way, I think it was and I take it so personally that I just become a little worry wort. It's really not worth it and I don't know how or why I've stopped doing it, but I just let it go, and let it flow.

So, well, pretty much this was kind of a boring blog, but we have been doing really good over here. It's true that life is hard, but really, it always will be and we really need to learn to be happy and have fun. The goal for life is to find happiness to find purpose, even in the smallest moments of pure happiness and purpose, we were meant to find those and create them.

Anyways, I really should stop talking now, I get kind of melancholy sometimes when I think too much lol, but I really am working hard to be more optimistic. To not hold on to any negative thoughts but as soon as I have one, just let it go as soon as it comes. Replacing the negative thought with something positive.

Well, I want to shout out to my family, if any of them get a chance to read this far into the blog, lol, thanks for coming on Sunday, it was so nice to see everyone and we really loved having everyone there. I think that family is really central to finding our true happiness and purpose in life. It's true, I am having a hard time waiting to have a family of my own, but we are praying about it and working with each other on our dreams and goals in life, soon, it will be our time to start a family and to be together forever. Lol, I could go on and on about everything but I am afraid I would really bore people to death. That's probably the only thing I don't like about the blogging is I can't really express myself in a short blog, it takes too long for me to express myself.

Well, if you got this far, you are very kind and nice to read this. I know I can be a little weird sometimes, but it's alright, my grandma says as long as you admit it, you're not really hopeless.

Anyways, have a great night! Talk to you next month, lol, jk, I will try to write a little more often. :) Good night.

Hello, :). So, I have not written in a while again, so I decided to write one for fun.

Right now, Provo City is over, inspecting our apartment.. it's very weird. They are dusting off our window..?? lol. I really don't understand why they're here. It's alright though, they came when I just got out of the shower, it was very awkward.

Anyways, it's not too annoying... just annoying lol. So, anyways enough of being negative. I think they're actually fixing our swamp cooler, it's making a lot of ruckus.

Work is going okay, my job anyway, we've been changing up some of my routines and now we will have confirmation emails going out to all of our buyers, finally. :) It is a big change because now my 45 step process, has about 15 less steps. But, that is boring, because work is boring, but it is fun because we have interesting moments like today, I saw a bug that was humongous... really it was huge, and so Emily smashed it and it really made a huge loud sounding splat... no kidding. It was the loudest splat you could ever imagine, all of us 4 girls were screaming in disgust.

Justin just got his grades back from last semester and he got one A, a B-, a B and one C-. lol, I am beginning to know that Justin is way, way too hard on himself. He always says he's never going to pass, he is going to fail. He really works hard at school, even though he really really hates his classes.

So, anyways, life is great. This week, on the 3rd and the 4th of July our neighborhood is having a ton of stuff going on. We are going to go have a barbecue with them on the night of the 3rd, and watch a movie and have dancing that night, and games. And then in the morning we have the whole block to ourselves to watch the parade. And then, on the morning of the 4th we have a crepe breakfast. I will tell you all how it went next week!

So.. Justin just told me that wasn't Provo City that was over, but a repair man from our landlord... lol, that was even more awkward being all awkward about it.


Guten Tag! That was for LeeAnn.

The things I am grateful for... Justin made me do it.

Hey, so, a few days ago I had just about the worst day at work. I hated everyone and everything about this world and I wanted everyone to know that. Justin, in the past has made me tell him 5 positives about work a day... well first you have to understand why I need to do that... my job is working with onri customer's, pretty much all day. lol. But, its not that bad, I just don't understand sometimes how people can get so puffed up over such a little thing. But, there are nice customers too.

For instance, today I had a nice old man call, he was very kind and fun to talk to. He is what makes it worth all of the overly exasperated customers. It's weird how one nice person can completely change the anger you seem to feel towards people.

Anyways, so Justin said, after I had come home that bad day and pretty much was ready to rip anyone's head off, that I had to write 300 things down that I am grateful for. And guess what, you get to hear them all right now... lol not, that would be bloody boring for the people involved.

But, I will give you a taste of what is ahead for the 300 positives. Here is the first ten things that I am very grateful for...

1. first and foremost my life and the one I will share the rest of it with... and forever.
2. my shoes, I always think of that first somehow, just because maybe if I didn't have them or the world didn't have them, I don't know where I'd be.
3. I am grateful for fruit: Oranges, banannas, strawberries, huckleberries (I love that name), apricots, plums, pomegranates, watermelons, apples ect.
4. my car, your car- they both run and are pretty nice
5. ICE CREAm-hehe, chocolate, rum-chocolate, mint-chocolate, pralines and cream, rockyroad ect.
5. Chocolate, chocolate fountains, chocolate bunnies, chocolate covered raisins, chocolate roses.
6. music- definitely in my top ten, Minus-the-bear, ska, romantic music... okay mostly I love romantic music
7. Tires.. I don't know why i thought of this as my top ten.. maybe I should make it farther down, but its just poppin out of my head. We would not get anywhere with our cars without tires.
8. Babies, my friend just had a baby so I am thinking about them, they are adorable and the fresh start of life and a generation. And they are really cute, :).
9. work- work before play, that's what makes us truly happy. We were meant to make something of ourself and to prove ourselves, I think work is part of that.
10. Jews... lol... where the heck did that come from lol. I'm so weird. I am grateful for all the people in this world, we have bitter people and happy people.. it evens out. :)

Lol... i really don't know where Jews came from. I was not trying to be racial or judgemental at all.

But, just those ten have helped me. I really am grateful for just the time and moments that I have and am able to enjoy. It is all such a blessing.

Well, I'm going to go eat some eggs and bacon, Justin cooked dinner tonight, he's really good at making eggs and bacon. :)

Good Night!