Monday, December 13, 2010

Moving On...

Hey Everyone,

So a lot has happened with our little family so I thought I would catch everyone up. Justin and I now live in Cedar City. We just moved in with Justin's Dad last Thursday, so we've been here 4 days so far. It has been a good time! :).

Some sad news is we had to give Jasper away. With moving and not knowing our future and how to accommodate Jasper my coworker took him under her loving, watchful care. I know he is being well taken care of. The only thing I worry about is what kind of emotions he will or has felt. Dogs do feel emotion even if it sounds really silly. We don't know if the emotions they feel are anything like ours but they definitely do have feelings. So, that's the only thing I worry about. You can't exactly explain to a dog why you have to leave him for an uncertain amount of time.

Anyways, I know that was a sad paragraph but sometimes life throws you fastballs that you are not really prepared for. Even if you'd had all the time in the world to get ready for them, they still come fast and seem unprepared for. I am trying to keep a positive outlook on it though. I did spend every single last minute with him to the fullest and I know I don't feel any regret from lost time that I could have spent with him.

I feel like, when you're about to have to let go of something dear to you, you have to be sure to experience everything that ever made you happy with that something again and again before you have to say goodbye. Even though I live only 3 hours away from my family, it was not easy to say bye to them. Especially my Mom as she is very dear to me. I wanted to experience as much happiness as I could with her before I left without coming across too needy so I tried to let her know she was needed by me. I really wish I could say the words that would tell her how much I appreciate her love and understanding. I also am going to miss not having a lot of my family within 10-15 min of me. I love my family and they mean the world to me.

Anyways, I know I am blubbering. Blubber, blubber, blub, blub. I think when I get in these epiphany moods I just can't stop blubbering so I guess that's how it is.

Justin and I are down here in Cedar because we are going to be starting our own business in Saint George; that is for certain. Everything else; starting a family, buying a house, finding me a full time job, is still up in the air and under construction and/or scrutiny. All we know is we love being together and we regularly have success with making other people want to barf with our constant PDA.

But, we're looking forward to Christmas and we have finished most of our Christmas shopping. I am excited to see my in laws who are coming down to Cedar soon. And, I do have lots of fun taking care of my in laws Border Collie "Strider". He has soooo much energy and I am sooo not used to it. But, it is fun to help him get his energy out and play with him.

Anyways, I better stop this blog or it will become a short novel.

I love you guys... whoever is reading this... and I hope you all are having a great holiday.

Love,
The Aikens