Studies

So, I am sitting here at work at four in the morning feeling like I want to write. I am feeling very grateful right now. I know that when people go on a little spiritual run of words it can feel somewhat fake or monotonous. But, I really feel very grateful in many ways.

I very much love to think about things. There are so many things to study and contemplate that I feel very lucky and grateful to be able to look and search and learn about anything. And, thanks to Wikipedia, it can easily be a hobby for anyone. Maybe we should call it wikipedianology. Or just the study of everything basically. There isn't really a correct English word for it. So, for now, it's just going to be called Wikipedianology.

But, to continue on this post, I am very grateful for the abilities that I have to study, experience and learn whatever I would like to. The hard part is... actually doing it. This morning, as was the same as the past few mornings, I haven't woken up until about 10AM. I have been rather lazy this last week and it seems like I haven't really successfully lived up to my learning abilities. I think its because we find a routine in our lives that we like and we stick with that. Anything that seems to deviate from our comfort zone or routine in our every day lives just doesn't stick for very long. The only things that tend to stick are the routines or things that are easy to stick with or extremely rewarding. I think that that is why it's something to be noticed when someone does something really difficult and out of the ordinary that doesn't seem all that rewarding to anyone else. Its the grad student that finished grad school for the 3rd time because she/ he just wanted to learn and it's also the stay and home Mom that decided to have a Mexican Fiesta night with all the Mexican decorations and garb involved. It's people that really try to live life instead of just get through it that amaze me the most (I got that from a quote on the wall of the gym I go to).

So, I resolve to sincerely try to be someone who lives life and truly studies it's complex ways and styles. It is a blessing to be able to have the ability to do so.

Sincerely,
Samantha

P.S. Sorry if this post doesn't really make sense, it is 4AM after all.