Little thoughts

So, since my last post about spring, it has been everything but spring. But, that's okay, today was beautiful and I think the next two days are going to be even nicer than today.

Today and yesterday was conference, and it was great. Today, Justin and I had so much fun. We first watched the morning session on our new computer hooked up to the TV. I am so glad Justin knows so much about computers. I think he thinks its just nerdy to know so much but it is really attractive to me... perhaps I have a little nerdery inside me as well. Who am I kidding, if you knew me in junior high and even high school I was 101% nerd, I just didn't know very much about what most nerds know about. So, anyways, than during the 2 hour break between sessions, we first helped my Mom book a hotel room for her little spring break vacation in Saint George. She's taking my little sister and her friend as well. I am sure it will be a lot of fun, I hope she has fun, especially how it's got to be perfect weather down there.

Than, after we helped my Mom, we went and got some pop from the coke machine. There are some times, I swear I have got to be the most annoying person but I can't help it! When I get hyper I just kind of tackle Justin and kind of tickle him and stuff, I always end up to where he's like looking at me like, "okay, will you Please leave me alone!" lol, or "Which planet did you come from?". Anyways, I do the same with Jasper as he is just so fun to play with. Even though he does just lay there a lot of the time when I play with him, he still has the same look as Justin has, it's funny when he does it as well.

So, after that we came home and watched the second session. We both really liked the talks, they were all very inspiring. I really love how much the spirit just spreads through the entire house when those prophetic men speak. It is so humbling and rejuvinating all at the same time.

After the second session was done, we than went to a little 5 acre dog park in Provo and let Jasper just hang out and run around. There were a few other dogs there but not many. Jasper got really tired after he ran around for about a half hour. He is definitely winding down and becoming a relaxed middle to old aged dog.

After we came back from the park, we came home and made fruit crepes. They were so stinking good!!! My mom gave me the recipe and they actually didn't turn out too bad. All you have to do is use some pancake mix, put a little more water than usual in the mix, add 2-3 eggs for the 4-8 pancake serving and cook each crepe in a skillet. After that, you just put any pie filling in the middle with lots of whipped cream and it's delicious and really filling. Justin gets so cute when he likes food, he starts explaining why it's so good. He's like " well, if you put the filling on the inside, with a ton of whipped cream on the outside, and than lots and lots of cinnamon, it's perfect!" And, he doesn't stop explaining his food, it's so freaking cute.

Anyways, so, sorry this blog is so long, but I should update you on how it's been going so far with the counseling. I have made a lot of progress I think. See, when I first got married, I thought that in order to be married you had to be almost exactly the same with all of the important goals and values. I kind of got caught up in this unfortunately though where I felt like I needed to make him sacrifice for us to make me feel like we were on the same page. I was unconciously forcing and making him change for me. Well, this was not working at all for me and I am very very glad because we would be in a much different situation now that would cause both of us to be completely miserable.

I am not sure if I am making much sense, but I am making a lot of progress. I absolutely cannot control his thoughts or actions, I was mostly trying to control his thoughts. He has his right to be and do whatever he wants to do and be. Even if it does affect me, that does not mean he doesn't have the right to do it. I have my right to be and do what I want to do and be. I am in control of myself and myself only. If I want to be happy, no one can truly make me happy except myself.

So, as you can imagine, this has helped me so much when we have any kind of issue with each other. Luckily, I have a very patient and long suffering husband, and it is much easier because of that fact.

Anyways, the counselor said that it is so good that we are figuring this out before we have children as they would be thanking us thoroughly for it. He said he can tell why we chose eachother as we do care about each other a lot. These two things help me a lot to focus on changing myself.

So, well, I better end this blog as it is going way too long I think. Well, love you all and hope you have a great Sunday and a great week this week!!! :D